What we you doing 17 years ago today?

I remember my day starting out as usual, Taking the kids to day care and school and heading into work. Then I remember calling to ask Roger a question at work and was told he wasn't there as he had a family emergency. I am trying to find out what is going on asking Michelle to help me by calling Larry and see what he could find out. I then heard the page that I had an emergency phone call on park 00. I picked it up to find my sweet sister-in-law Lorie telling me that they had to take dad to the hospital as we quit breathing at work. Don't worry she said everything is ok, Becky is on her way to get you and bring you out as I don't think that you are ok to drive. I remember the whole way there Becky was driving as fast as she could and I was crying just saying please not my daddy, please not my daddy. I made that drive every day but this drive seem like it took forever to get to Pioneer Valley Hospital. When we finally got there I remember seeing Alan and Susie Broderick was walking out and Mary and Erlon walking out as well. But I kept telling myself it is ok don't freak out you will go in to a busy ER and then you can go see your daddy. Nope I walked into the most empty room I have ever seen and no one was there to greet me either. When someone finally come out I asked where Van Tucker was I was here for him. Thru the door ma'am. Then when I opened the door there was my family and my brother Rod came to me and said Sis they did everything they could but dad has passed away. I melted in his arms and Roger came to hold me as I cried no not my daddy, no not my daddy. They took me into a room to give me a blessing that I would be ok and be able to handle everything that was going on. I went into the ER room that he was in and I remember see daddy's body lying so still, grey and with a breathing tube in his mouth. When I touched him he was very cold and clammy. But that didn't stop me from stroking his hair and kissing him on the forehead and telling how much I loved him. It was nice to see finally at peace and not hurting no more. Daddy always said the only way he was leaving Zions was on a stretcher dead, well you can see what happened. He visited the doctor (Dr. Pepper) that morning as he did every morning. Terry his cube mate heard him gurgle and asked if he was okay only to turned and see his head to his chest. It was that quick and easy. Mom was afraid she hadn't told him she loved him that morning. I reassured her that she did like every morning as she straightened his pants, made sure his shirt was tucked in and his partner was ready to go with him for the day. Then she would hand his his mug of water, lunch and a kiss and off he would go smelling like Brut loved his smell. So daddy I love you and every day I thank my heavenly father for the most wonderful daddy I could ever have and hope that you were up there getting things ready for us. I am sure you played and talked alot with Evander before come to earth. I miss your sweet spirit daddy but would never want you to suffer as you did everyday all day. But your songs and whistling along with singing in the morning as you got ready also plays in my head when I am having a bad day. I am sad today but only because the good memories flood thru my head and hard to believe it has been 17 years since that day. My kids cried and cried that their Grandpa Tucker was gone, we reminded them that you are not too far, just going ahead to prepare for the rest of us. We Love You Daddy :)